I struggle with sleeping in much more than she so I’m often the first one up and certainly the first one in the kitchen. She’s a coffee drinker where I prefer tea or juice most mornings but I still love to ritualistically pull down the burr grinder, carafe and French press from their top shelf and start a kettle. I fill the carafe with water as hot as the tap will allow, fill the grinder with a predetermined amount of beans and pulverize. I hate my French press, a shatterproof plastic thing lacking any sort of elegance, but I can’t bring myself to replace it.
Once the water boils, I dump the bean soil into the press then fill it up halfway and stir with a purple chopstick fated for just this purpose as its twin was lost in a move or behind the stove. Usually by the time I fill the press full, her waking noises are struggling over The Long Winters or Sonny Rollins or whatever it is I’m inflicting on a quiet morning because I’m the insensitive type who thinks that everyone within earshot should be awake if I am. I set a timer for five minutes.
I’ll dawdle for a minute, add a little water to one of the mugs I’ve collected from local coffee shops then nuke it for a minute to heat it up. Her main concern is that the coffee is strong but temperature is my obsession so I preheat every vessel. The timer alarms its noisy electronic interruption. I empty the warmed carafe, plunge the press and transfer the fresh brew. I pour her a cup, no cream or sugar, and return to find her sitting up, rubbing her eyes. She always smiles, looks up with those beautiful eyes, hands outstretched. She takes a sip and tells me she loves me.

